July 15th, 2008 by BlogRmom

Well it’s officially the *final* countdown!! The kids are having their surgery in less then 10 hours. We have to be at the hospital in less hen 8 hours. WOW! I can’t believe the day is here and I can’t believe I survived up to this point, honestly I can’t. When *I* make it through tomorrow THEN I will say it’s a success. I am still so incrediably worried. I tried to remain calm though and NOT let the kids know that I am super stressed and having so much anxiety. I do NOT want to pass any of it on to them!!

We talked a little tonight about what would happen tomorrow. I told them I would NEVER leave there side until the last minute and then explain I only HAD to at that point so it would be “safe” and no infections would happen, but as soon as they woke up I would be RIGHT there and so would daddy. We would never leave the building or the floor and we would never be more then a few steps from their room when we can’t be in there. My mother in law is coming. Now you all know I am really really having a tough time because I called her to come. We don’t see eye to eye 90% of the time, so I don’t usually let her in on my business, but I felt like I needed some support. My mother and I don’t really get along, we never did, even though we talk, I never call her for this stuff, I call my MIL. So I am picking my MIL up at 5:30am on the way to the hospital. As much of a bitch as I am… She’s a bigger one… so I know that if something is starting to go ajar or I don’t like it, I will give her the eye and she will MAKE it my way… We are a pretty bad ass team like that. *wink* Now, yes, my hubby will be there, but he’s the “fly by the seat of my pants” kinda guy. If they say something, he will just agree because that is what he does. *I* voice opinions, he doesn’t. So I thought it was in my best interest to have someone on my team tomorrow. Good call? We shall see… I hope I didn’t make a mistake!!

This morning I got a knock on the door. I was VERY shocked when I opened the door and there was a man standing there with flowers. Surely he had the wrong house or address. I said “Hello?!” He said “Are you Bobbie?” I said “Depends on what you want.” MUAH… I am such a smartass… He said “If you are, these are for you.” I said “Well then yes, that would be me (as I am laughing).” He said (laughingly) “Have a good day!” I said “Thank you.” and shut the door. Who the hell would send ME flowers? I looked and surely the card was for ME!! So I opened it and inside was a VERY sweet note from a friend. My friend, Marie had sent me these flowers and some well wishes for tomorrow and everyday…

How incrediably sweet of her!! I immediatly keyed her up on yahoo and thanked her. She has no idea about the rest of this post, but I am going to post it because it’s important… Not only did she stop and think of me today, but sending this gift to me… She made my day something COMPLETELY different then what it would have been. I highly suspect that today would have been a repeat day of the few leading up to today… anxiety, groggy, dreary and a slew of other sad emotions I’ve been feeling these days. However, today was so much different, so much more… It was bright, cheery… The kids and I enjoyed the day, everytime I walked by them I looked and grinned a little… We had a nice enjoyable afternoon… I took them to the park, then they went swimming this afternoon (since they won’t be able to swim for a while now) and then hubby and I took them out to dinner for kids night at Perkins. They loved that.

It’s amazing to me how ONE gesture can change your entire day, your entire outlook. I’m not a material person at all… but it was just something about getting these that was kind of a “slap in the face” that made me realize that I have so much to be thankful for, so much to be proud of, so much to be happy about, so much to be excited about… and even though there is a down moment in this all… There are people that care, people that don’t like seeing me down, people that are thinking of me and the kids as we go through tomorrow. I can’t tell you how THAT makes me feel. There are no words to describe it….

I want to thank EVERYONE that has sent emails, text messages, IM’s, prayers and thoughts for us tomorrow!! We are truely BLESSED to have each and everyone of you. You’ve all done amazing things for me!! I added Twitter back to my sidebar and will update my Twitter tomorrow as we go, so you can check my blog sidebar for the Twitter updates!! Here’s a picture of the kids today swimming… they can be so cute sometimes:

And with that I am going to head off for the night.  I have a few things to do and I am going to head to bed and hopefully rest!! Here’s a link for you bloggers: Wilmington real estate.